The "change" people are seeing here in me is simply a reflection of how I am in my everyday life. I am not a combative person, or one who takes delight in others' sorrow and pain. If this isn't me offline, why should it be me online.
As I said to someone who I spoke with via PMs this morning, there was a reason for me separating myself from "Ken Dahl" and "Afro the BSource administrator". It's about getting back to Herbert. And making sure my foundation is strong before I add any flooring to my house.
This is why you guys have seen me interested in ancestry. This is why you see me in pictures with my real hair, and not a wig. This is why you see an abbreviation of my real name as my username on here. It's an effort to form consistency in my life.
Many wonder where the sudden change came from, but if you really look at the events and decisions I've made from the end of the last year until now, it's anything but sudden. And I am still working on it. Because there are moments in which I feel I could do things a little better. But I am proud of myself, nonetheless.
I am happy that my journey has inspired others. And I never want anyone here to feel like I am separating myself from you guys. I am still here, faithfully, every day. It's just that I've chosen to conduct myself in a different manner, not for the show of it, but for personal reasons.
But you will never find me going from thread to thread and dictating how others should behave. And if you need me, just reach out to me, I've actually had some wonderful conversations with 3 members throughout the morning via PMs.
I was happy to be able to share my insecurities, triumphs and experiences with them, as they did with me. Its needless to reiterate how much I love you all. But I will say it again, over and over. I love you unconditionally.